Hi friend and welcome to Pardon My Positivity! This is a brand new adventure for me into the world of blogging and one that I am very excited for! I welcome you to join in this journey with me!

What exactly is Pardon My Positivity and what is it all about??? Well, let me take you on a journey to where it all began…

It all started back in 2010, I was pregnant for the third time after suffering two miscarriages and having a seemingly prefect pregnancy.

30 weeks

 

That was until I was admitted to the hospital on April 9th, 2010 at 40+4 weeks with HELLP Syndrome. I would only learn this as I was being released from the hospital. At the time of diagnosis, I had no idea what was wrong with me. They only told me that I was “very sick” and that we needed to get the baby out ASAP! Delivery was the only “cure”. They did prepare me that after the birth of the baby I would still be on the decline but that I would eventually rebound. What they didn’t prepare me, or my husband for, was the fact that my life and the baby’s was actually at risk. This is a life threatening pregnancy complication that stands for:

H – hemolysis

EL – elevated liver enzymes

LP – low platelets

 

So, basically my liver was shutting down and at risk for rupturing; my red blood cell count was low which means oxygen was not traveling well throughout my body and low platelets meaning that my blood is not able to clot which puts me at an increased risk of internal bleeding or “bleeding out”. On top of all of that, I also had extremely high blood pressure and was on a magnesium sulfate drip to control the risk of having seizures.

I was in very rough shape.

 

Luckily, we were able to deliver a health baby boy!

First Family Photo! I was so swollen, exhausted and could barely open my eyes or smile yet I was busting with joy!

 

Not long after giving birth to my son, I fainted and almost fell into a coma after my blood pressure dropped almost off the charts. I remember waking up to a group of people hovered over me calling my name… “Leah, Leah, Leah…” I came to saying, “Yes, I’m here, I’m here.”

I remember looking up at my husband, who was walking into the room at that very moment and seeing the look on his face – it was like he had just seen a ghost. I knew something as very wrong and I can still recall that moment so vividly almost 7 years later.

This is how I spent the first 3 days after my son was born. I was not able to hold him, nurses would bring him to lay in the bed with me to nurse him and I would be sleeping almost all day.

I ended up staying in the hospital for a total of 5 days before being released. During my hospital stay, I went on to have another very traumatic experience, which I will save for another post, but is worth mentioning as it also had a huge impact on what brought me to where I am today.

 

Upon being released from the hospital, I went home to frantically research what had happened to me after not receiving much information about it from the hospital or doctors. It wasn’t until doing my own research that I found out just how grave my condition was. Needless to say, this entire experience gave me a completely new perspective on life and made me feel like I had been given a second chance!

 

Today, I treat every day like it is a gift and try to never take it for granted! Life, as we all know, is very fragile and short. With that being said, I only have the space in life for positive vibes only, I do not have the time or space for negativity. Unexpected things happen in life and I’ve learned to let it in, feel it but for only a brief moment and let it go! This has taken time to learn but when you are filled with gratitude to just be alive, it quickly reminds you how to put things back into perspective. Now, I am able to live very unapologetically positive! 

First Christmas as a Family of 3!

 

This is only part one of my story of triumph! Stay tuned for more of my life experiences that have led me to this positive place!

 

Thanks for reading!

~Leah